Sounds like you've had a hard life.

I hope you get to see 'A' one day, i'm sure he thinks about you alot.

You never know he might look for you when he is a little older despite whatever your ex has said about him.

And i'm sure you can have a brilliant relationship with your current gf.

just try not to think about not having children because it may tear you apart.

With all this.

I wish you all the best.

Steph

x